Friday, 11 April 2014


Can't believe its been 2 month since I last updated this.

Although things haven't been fast moving  things have still progressed in all areas of my life.

Started taking the physiotherapy more seriously again and have Incorporated it with other exercises in the hope that it will help me lose some weight. If not then at least it should keep my fitness levels up and help tone up some of the flabby bits. As a family we are all trying to eat a lo healthier and have stopped buying meat and fruit from the supermarket and using a local butchers in Grange town called Stirks instead. Their meat is the best and so are the prices so it is not just healthier but cheaper, always a bonus. we have also stopped buying so much processed food from the supermarket as well as changing from their bread to fresh baked bread . All of this seems to have helped my IBS a lot so another win win situation. Weight loss isn't great bu it is starting to decrease. The worst part is working out what is due to being unhealthy and weight gain and what is down to swelling from IBS, Arthritis and Fibromyalgia as these can all cause drastic weight gains. Add into the mix being in a wheelchair and pain killers and its not a good combination.

Only five weeks after the Easter break left in my first year at University and I cant believe how quickly it has gone ! I have enjoyed my time at Sunderland College (with it being an extended degree of 4 instead of 3 year the first year was at college), it has been a little disappointing in some aspects,. Definitely the best thing I have done but a bit disillusioned with it as not all that was promised or expected was delivered. But so excited about moving onto campus properly come September ! After speaking to my tutor it looks like if I keep up the hard work over the next 3 years then I will be heading for a first. So if you are sitting out there reading this, disabled or not, wondering if you could/should...just stop and do it !! you will be surprised how much help there is out there and how much you will enjoy it. Personally I have learnt a lot about myself in the last 9 months and found things out about myself that I never thought I would be capable of after my amputation.

Still counting down for September and Disney and have managed to get out socially with friends the other week. This was the first time in nearly a year. I plan on doing it more often, like I said before the amount of confidence going to University has given me is unreal. I released that I CAN do these things and I SHOULD enjoy myself just like everyone else and I am NOT an inconvenience ! So seeing as it was far and few between occasions off I went to the beauty salon. Can I just say how the hell women put themselves through that torture every week for those single eyelashes is beyond me! I don't know what was worse getting them on as it felt I had been blinded or taking them off. It was all worth it  though I felt like a million dollars and for once was happy with my body image, something I haven't been in a long time.
I have also been inspired to apply to more casting agencies, so that is what I have done.  Having had a screen test for a movie I released it wasn't an experience that most people will get and I loved every minute of it. I may not get the part but what a story to tell the grand kids.

So I guess overall just like spring I feel like I have been given a second lease of life. Another chance not just to plod along but to actually apply myself and do things I enjoy, experience things that prior to the amputations I wouldn't have dreamed of never mind now, just live life to the full and damn the wheelchair and no legs. My kids see me living life to the full and not letting things such as no legs hold me back then hopefully they will relaise   that in this life anything is possible, never give up and dreams can come true if you work hard.This is the legacy I want to leave. I am not saying its going to be easy. I am not saying am not going to have set backs or issues. Hell I could be on a total downer tomorrow and sit and wonder how much more I have to take and why me. The point is..eventually... the good days will out weigh the bad ones. It just takes time and a whole lot of hard work.

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